Frustration

Judgements
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Judgements

But really, it is an illusion that others can’t see your worth. Someone who shows you disrespect probably does see who you are. But how you are triggers something in them; a cell memory; something in their shadow; something they cannot love and accept in themselves. There is an internalised voice in them that judges you. But that voice is a voice from their past. Someone who was hurt. You or your behaviour triggers a memory; feels like a threat to them. They most probably have no sensible explanation for their dislike of you.

Those ghosts from the past may also live within you. And you might think their judgements about you are your own. Only when you realise that your identity was constructed by lots of other people’s identities, you will see that you are not the one who thinks. It is not you who judges you. You are awareness witnessing those thoughts, and you choose to believe them. That is identification – another building block to your ego.
So, really, it’s not worth believing any of what is going through your mind. It’s always enough just to witness it.
You are the creator of your ego. You can decide at any moment who you choose to be in this big play called humanity.
When you find yourself putting you down, ask yourself, is it serving me and others, or is it serving only me, or is it serving only them. Only if your thoughts are serving the whole, you are serving Love.

ihatemyself #donthateyourself #awarenessiseverything #TheTRANSFORMProcessTM

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Failure

Should I feel a failure because my workshop didn’t happen for the lack of participants?

No worries! I’m not asking for pity.

I refuse to feel a failure – some entity inside tells me I can do it but it wasn’t the right time. The feeling of being a loser does still come up when I find myself unsuccessful of achieving what I aimed for; also, I feel a little sad and impatient. But something else happens very quickly afterwards these days: I know that I can not see the bigger picture, especially not when I feel down and unworthy. I remember that difficult times have always made me stronger and led to something bigger, better. I simply accept that it is not the time to experience this kind of success. And: Most importantly, I have a fantastic social network which makes sure I don’t get lost in self pity.

So, my workshop didn’t take place. But: I am blessed having had it booked with somebody who wouldn’t charge me for the room. It was a beautiful, sunny day; I had my two daughters with me (doesn’t happen very often) and my husband. And my wonderful, supportive and devoted friend – who had booked a place on my workshop – came anyway to spend the day with us. We went for a pub lunch in Oxford at The Jolly Farmers and laughed a lot and ate a wonderful meal.

I fail. But that doesn’t make me a loser or a failure.

I am successful. Whenever I get the opportunity to work with a person, I feel successful.

Life is beautiful.

Thought, I also start sharing my photos with you. So here is one:

You never know what’s round the corner. In the meantime, see the beauty that shows itself to you.

Bless u all!